Romans 7: 15I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do I do not do, but what I hate I do. 16And if I do what I do not want to do, I agree that the law is good. 17As it is, it is no longer I myself who do it, but it is sin living in me. 18I know that nothing good lives in me, that is, in my sinful nature. For I have the desire to do what is good, but I cannot carry it out.
That one got me. I know that I need to spend time with Christ, away from everything else-but I allow all of life’s distractions to get in the way. I know I want to dig into His word, but I find myself doing everything but. We keep saying “When we move to Africa, we will dedicate more time, we will do more for Him, we will….” And I wonder-WHY not start now? What is it that prevents us from doing what we know we need to do? We do desire it, and know what we should do, but still don’t do it.
Paul’s notes are clear-Sin in our lives stops everything. Does this mean we can use that as an excuse? No way-we have to understand it, and make an effort to fight against it. Everyday is promised to be a struggle, but we have the key and the secret. Jesus. Look-we become more and more aware that it is not about a ceremony, about what we can recite, it is about a real relationship with a real God. Some folks call us “religious”.. (kind of makes us chuckle)- I think if we can all lead out with real love- love of other sinners, love of those that don’t know him, a love that surpasses the walls of a church building-and meets folks where they are-regardless of what someone else may think -is the only way. I really think that if Christ came back tomorrow- he might be found in a place that none of us expect. At the end of this exciting journey- everything will be made known. I pray that the passion we have for Him now, only continues to grow and strengthen, that we can truly put Him first in EVERYTHING. We will fail, but we will continue to give it our all-HOW ABOUT YOU? Swaziland calls, it’s all His, and if we don’t go-who will. Most folks 2000 years ago thought that everything that was done in the name of "christianity" was ridiculous-did not make sense.. maybe we all need to make a little less sense-and be radical with our love and decisions! It may be a bit selfish on our part to want to go- to be closer to God, to see and be His love.- perhaps this is our reward-to get to see Him that much closer, to be scarred for Him. For the first time in my life, I can truly say- I believe that it’s all His, the money, the time, the service-it is ALL His.
I know-it is a whole lot of random thoughts, but I can say- I look forward to knowing Him better tomorrow that I do today. If I can enter each day with simply that-how exciting!
Is there anyone that you have ever wanted to meet? A Hollywood actor? A Sports figure?... How about the author of Life itself? He gave us life, it’s all His- so we can give Him our all… right? An exciting journey continues!